new years resolutions

It's that time of year where everyone starts sharing the memes saying cue the 'New year, New me' posts, when no one even says that anymore.. 

It's that time of year where I start thinking up my New Years Resolutions though.. And I have a few in mind! I think it's good to set a NYR or goals or just something to work towards! It gives you abit of motivation and ambition and I am all about that!!

So I'm going to set a resolution and a goal..
My resolution for 2018 is more about myself, so I am quite a positive person, tbh Im a really positive person when it comes to anything apart from myself!! I can see the positive side to anything but my brain is like a switch I can switch is straight to negative and it doesn't want to switch back!! So my resolution this year is that I want to be more positive! I want to see the good in everything rather than the bad! Sometimes, and I'm not the only person who does it so don't think I'm a bitch just because your reading this when we all know it goes on in all of our group chats, but sometimes a photo that I've sent in or someone else has sent in of something/someone/what someones tweeted/whats someones posted, we all make a little comment, have a giggle and be done with it. Well I'm going to stop that, I'm going to stop all of that, even now I'm like wtf am I being a bitch for? Why am I being bitchy about someone I don't even know, Why do I even care about what so and so tweeted, if someones happy let them bloody live, it doesn't effect me, why should I have an opinion? Who am I to make a comment I know nothing about? We've probably all been sent in a group chat before getting ripped to shreads for what we have wore or tweeted or captioned a photo by people who hardly know us!  Everyone has a little bitch I get that, we all do, boys (some worse than girls), girls, mums and dads! But I make comments that I don't even mean! So thats my resolution, to be more positive about me and everything! Sometimes, probably most times, comments are made from insecurity and jealousy.. I do I know I do.. I mean sometimes I say things because I actually think that person is a full blown prick.. but ay they're doing them, Im doing me.. Positive me! Focus on myself and not let anything else get in my way!

My goal for 2018 is about business! Well 1 thing I have said Im going to do in 2018 is to start my youtube channel doing makeup and hair tutorials! But apart from that I want to push my makeup career and I want to learn more things! Weather it is different styles of makeup, going on different mastercalsses with different artists that I love, or learning different hair ups, braids or extensions! I don't even know but I know I want to push my career! I want to learn something new so I have something else to offer! I want to push myself as much as I can this year, get myself out there, I want to say this exact time next year, fair play I done well this year! Every year I do try hard and I work hard and being self employed is so hard because if your quite you don't get paid and I get good weeks and bad weeks, but now even on my bad weeks I want to push myself! I might start doing makeup photo shoots every 8 weeks, showing different creations I can do! I don't have an exact plan, but im okay with that!!

My overall outlook for 2018 is that I want to say yes to everything!! Well not everything, but Im scared of alot, I have a lot of fears and I'm a worrier, back to saying I turn negative, its kinda related! I start to then think well what if that happens, all what ifs and buts.. what if I die.. You won't die.. I might die.. I could die.. Thats my brain.. 2018 my brain is going to be yea okay why not.. what if i d.. actually yea okay why not! Yea okay I will have a sambucca shot even though it could make me feel sick.. Yea okay I will go on a rollercoaster even though I don't like them.. Im not gonna back or talk myself out of things! Its draining worrying myself when I have nothing to worry about! Ive achieved a lot this year and the things I was most scared of were the highlights of my year! My sky dive! Everything I hated, turnt into the most amazing experience ever! I am now going to be a Yes Girl! You know when Chuck Bass turns to a Yes Man.. Thats me, minus the motorbike accident.. Well actually who knows?! I might go on a motorbike! Why the fuck not!

I hope you enjoyed this post, I hope you've had an amazing year and I hope 2018 brings you the best!! Comment below your goals for 2018!

Love Lacey xxx