I can't actually believe I'm writing a blog post on this because I still can't believe that I actually jumped out of a plane at 14,000ft over the palm in Dubai! Fear is a funny funny thing, it can stop you from doing certain things and it can stop you from enjoying certain things. I have a fear of flying, a massive fear of flying and this year me and Jake booked a holiday to Dubai, the moment we booked it I was already dreading the 7hr flight there! It doesn't stop me from going away no, but it does effect it!!
The moment we booked Dubai I knew that I was going to get Jake a sky dive over the palm for his birthday because he was banging on and on about! Yes I was going to get JAKE a sky dive. Ended up booking one for myself aswell though.. I kinda peer pressured myself into it! I just couldn't be like happy birthday babe heres your present, your going to be jumping out of a plane and I'm going to watch you from the floor, off you go! And the thought of him going up there on his own just made me sad like I couldn't let him do that! Well I could of, but I didn't want too! And also just because I booked myself one it didn't mean that I HAD to do it! I could still pull out, no one can force me to jump out of a plane can they?
Dubai was coming closer and closer and I was literally dreading the flight and dreading this stupid skydive! I was watching videos constantly on youtube and I would just cry and cry because I knew that was going to be! I wasn't crying because I was sad or upset, I don't even know why I would cry to be honest? Maybe it was just fear?
Flight To Dubai;
The flight to Dubai was fine.. I cried taking off because that is my worst part I absolutely hate taking off I hate that feeling of when he plane leaves the floor! Everyone said to me that the flight will be fine because the planes are so much bigger you don't feel the turbulence which made me feel worse because how can this big fat massive heavy metal bird float from England to Dubai!?!?! But it did float from England to Dubai and obviously we were fine the flight was fine, it always was going to be fine but when you have a fear it takes over!! This was a massive step that I was on this flight and not panicking the whole time! To be honest because it was such a bigger plane and you have the separate TV's for yourself and food etc it wasn't too bad! Not saying I enjoyed it I'm just saying it wasn't too bad! The only thing was that once we had landed I knew I was 2 days away from going back up in a plane and this time not landing in one..
The Night Before:
Well I was just a big fat mess, I was crying, I had no sleep, I couldn't eat, I was so nervous, I was getting myself into such a state! Why am I getting myself into this much of a state!? Why am I forcing myself to do something that I don't want to do? I don't need to put myself through this?! So I made up my mind I wasn't going to do the skydive, I text the girls to say that I'm not gonna do it and Jake was just like see how you feel tomorrow then you make up your mind.
The Morning;
Honestly, I have never sweated so much in my life! My palms were like puddles! Even thinking back to how nervous I was makes me feel nervous now! We got to the skydive centre, we were like half hour early so we were just waiting and I was just crying I was trying really hard not to but tears were just falling down my face and I couldn't help it! I was really trying to be brave but it wasn't working! Im not brave. Im not doing it! Jake was so calm, he was just chilling and I was just crying. I wasn't scared of dying, I didn't think I was going to die, I was scared of being in the plane that high up and jumping out of it and hurtling to the floor. Once the skydive centre opened, we got checked in, we got weighed, we had to sign our lives away on this form. My whole body was literally trembling, I was like a human vibrator, literally! We ad to wait for our skydive instructor to call our names to go through demos.. "Lacey Wiltshire up next" FUUUUCKKKKK!!!! Why am I called up before Jake!!? More tears!!! JP my skydive instructor was so nice! He was really reassuring, and the guy filming my skydive was from somerset and lived in Bristol for 15 years so once he heard my accent we were having a little chit chat and he was calming me down as much as he could!Too Late Now;
Next thing you know we are on this little bus stop waiting for this little bus to come collect us.. So here comes the little bus.. Here comes more tears! Yea I know what your thinking fuck me this girl can cry.. And yes, yes she can!! Okay now this little plane is infront of me, it was basically an old school bus with wings. I always said I wanted to jump out of the plane before Jake because I couldn't watch him jump out before me like that thought just makes me feel sick! But the way we got in the plane that didn't happen. The plane takes off, I was just gripping onto the man next to me, I don't even think you could say I was scared, I was absolutely petrified!! Up and up and up and up and up ...... and up and up and up we go.. We are going high, really fucking high!! Im just looking at Jake like are we really doing this!?!? All the instructors then asked for us to sit on their laps so they could strap us to them properly, please lord strap me to you tight and close and well because I am not ready to die! The first guy jumps, see you down there hun. Then Jake jumps, I was literally like I love you I love you I love you. I was crying. AGAIN. Then its my turn, We are stood up on the edge of the plane, my feet were just dangling they weren't even on the floor. JP was pushing my chin up so my head was tucked under his head, so you couldnt look down and see how high you were. OH FUCK NOW YOU CAN WERE JUMPING OUT THE PLANE!!!! I thought it would be like a swan dive but its like a head first roll dive!!! The first three seconds was fucking horrible everything was flashing through my head what the fuck am I doing, someone help me, how do I breathe!?! Then literally, all of a sudden everything just went. All fear was gone!!! I am flying?!! I am 14,000ft in the air flying over The Palm in Dubai!!! I couldn't stop smiling?!What is there to be scared of!? I am conquering every single fear I had! (apart from frogs and spiders) THIS IS AMAZING!!!!! Then the parachute goes up! That wasn't too new because you shoot back into the air quite a bit and its like you are a rag doll! Jake said it hurt he's manly parts too. But once the parachute was open, we span around and faced the view, and I honestly can't even describe the feeling, your floating with the most incredible view, it was so overwhelming. It was like a dream, I didn't want the land, I was so happy just floating around it was magical!! But you got to land at some point and the moment I did I never ran and hugged Jake so tight before in my life!! I wanted to laugh and cry some more, it was just sensational! It was amazing! The best thing I have ever done in my life and I am so happy that I shared that experience with Jake! I would recommend anyone to do a sky dive, people say I don't think I could do it, but I didn't think I could do it but I am so glad I did. Im writing this and I'm even like getting emotional because I never thought I had it in me!! I will never ever forget how I felt before and how I felt after and how it makes me feel when I talk about it now. Ive never told the story without a smile on my face! Honestly I know I exaggerate but it was life changing!
If I can do it anyone can! Everyone deserves to feel that feeling I felt (after I jumped, not before), it was just amazing!! I hope anyone who has a fear of flying or heights but wants to do a skydive but don't think they can, you really can! You really really can!!!
I am going to be honest aswell, I wasn't epexcting it to conquer my fear of flying and I was still nervous flying home. It didn't cure my fear, but it helped it for sure and it helped myself! I never thought I was brave enough!
I hope you enjoyed this post, and I hope you do a skydive!
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